I just spent my Saturday doing nothing.  It was actually very enjoyable.  I woke up late.  Surfed the internet.  Watched a movie, and my North Carolina Tar Heels lose to Florida State, worked out and pretty much did nothing else.  Didn’t even read a book.  At about 6 PM tonight I realized I have been numbing out all day.  I don’t know if you numb out but I am guessing you probably do.  Numbing is doing activities that require minimal brain effort in order to not think about what is really going on in your life.

Most of us numb out because life is too painful to interact with it or really think about what is going on in our lives.  We may watch a lot of TV, go out every night, spend a lot of time surfing the net, or just sleep a lot to avoid what is really going on internally.  The primary reason we numb out is because a major piece of our life is broken, or we are missing an important cog in our personal world.  

I think the reason I am numbing is because my wife was out of town on a Girls weekend and I don’t know what to do on weekends without her.  This has been a good reason to feel like there is a big piece of my life is missing.  But… I know that having this time without her around has made me take stock on how I am doing spiritually and emotionally.  I realize I have work to do in my own life.  I need to face the big questions of life.  Where am I going?  What does God want from me?  How can I live a life that leaves a legacy?  

If you are numbing, take stock of where you are.  What issue is causing you pain?  Why are you hiding in mindless activities?  If that is you I encourage you to look courageously upon your fear or pain and work to overcome it.